I just spent the last 4 hours of my evening cleaning my house. Unfortunately, I’m only half finished. That’s what happens when everyone is home for 3 days, everyone is sick with the stomach flu, and I was sick for 2 days too. Triple whammy. My house was disgusting. Half of it still is. Cleaning for that long gave me lots of time to think, though, and ponder.
Oh, how I have always longed to be more like Mary, to know and care more for the eternal thing than the earthly. To be more open to the promptings in my heart than the distractions of life. Yet, I feel for Martha. She was just trying to make sure things were right in her home. Maybe she was frantically making preparations for company she was not prepared for. How many times have I gotten upset at my husband and children for not helping me and felt like the martyr because I was doing everything “myself.” Some people are good at following their hearts first. Some people are good at organizing and keeping tidy homes. I feel like I am good at neither, but always getting better. I feel like I am more like Martha and always troubled about things. If I were more like Mary, maybe my children would be more happy with me. Yet, life requires Martha too. Maybe it’s just trying to find a balance between the two. Either way, there will always be things to be troubled about, or stressed. Christ tells us to come unto him and he will make our burdens light. Perhaps Mary knew that. If he had been in my home tonight maybe he would have sat on the floor and played trains with my children. Or, maybe he would have realized my own stress and helped me tidy the house so I could be at peace.
There is a balance between this earthly life and the eternal that lies all around us, but it is for us to find. I know I am always learning, always making mistakes. I watched a mother today as she was rushing out of the store with 2 children in tow. Both children fell on their faces as she was trying to rush them out to the car as their little legs couldn’t keep up with hers. They quickly jumped up and kept going.