Why I Listened To This One Reason To Start Homeschooling, When a Hundred Other Reasons Were Telling Me Not To!
Most people pull their children from the public school system because their child is struggling in one way or the other. They are falling behind in a subject, or they are getting bullied. Another reason may be that school isn’t challenging enough for your child and you pull them out to help them excel. My reason was none of these. I was never against other people homeschooling, but it was something I would never do. My kids were thriving in school. They got a long with others well and loved being with their friends. So why in the world would I pull them out? It is simple really, it is because God wanted me to.
We all have a strength that we pull from. Some great power deep within us to fall back on when we need it. Whether we call it instinct, feelings, random thoughts, inner will, we all have moments where we dig deep and find a strength we didn’t know we had. I believe this comes from God, our Heavenly Father, a faith that has been rooted deeply in me. This faith feels my heart with immense gratitude. I can’t imagine raising my boys without little flashes of understanding, simple ideas that pop in my head, or the guidance that I receive daily.
This feeling that I needed to home school my boys came at the beginning of the summer soon after school let out. I started to have random little thoughts pop in my head that I quickly dismissed. I mean really??? Why would I home school my 5 rambunctious boys. These thoughts continued, and not only were there thoughts, but different things I read also encouraged me to homeschool my boys.
I came up with a lot of excuses:
- It would be too hard
- I don’t have the time
- Our families way of life would drastically change
- I don’t have the patience
- I couldn’t help my husband with different things during the day.
- It would be harder to help others when they needed it
A hundred other voices were telling me not to listen. It got to the point that I couldn’t sleep at night and I was getting physically ill. I cried a lot! I talked with my husband, who agreed with me, that it would be a very hard thing and would take a lot of my time. I talked with a lot of other families who homeschooled their kids, trying to understand my own feelings. After 2 weeks of fighting this feeling, I finally accepted the fact that we were supposed to homeschool our boys.
When this happened, I felt the weight of the world go off my shoulders! I felt peace and a sense of contentment. I knew everything would work out. I started looking for curriculum to use, which was an incredibly overwhelming experience. Within a couple days everything seemed to fall in my lap. Different resources, friends, and curriculum helped me to get all set up for homeschooling my boys in the fall. However, I WAS TERRIFIED! There were so many unknowns that made me worry of how smoothly everything would go. Would my boys like it? Would they miss the social life at school? Would I go crazy? What would my 1 year old and 3 year old do? Somehow we did it and love it!
This decision, that I was so quick to dismiss, has changed my families life. It has been the best thing that has happened to us. We have grown together as a family and my boys are best friends. Do we have moments when we want to run and hide? Absolutely! Its not all peaches and cream over here! Lots of times its salt and vinegar (which can be a tasty treat). We have learned, laughed, cried and grown together as a family and wouldn’t trade it for the world. The things I did before, when my boys were in school, somehow still get done. For me, what better thing could I be spending my time doing, then teaching my boys?
“Teaching in the home is becoming increasingly important in today’s world, where the influence of the adversary is so widespread and he is attacking, attempting to erode and destroy the very foundation of our society, even the family. Parents must resolve that teaching in the home is a most sacred and important responsibility. While other institutions, such as church and school, can assist parents to “train up a child in the way he [or she] should go” (Proverbs 22:6), ultimately this responsibility rests with parents.” L. Tom Perry
Now this post is not to tell everyone that homeschool is the way to go! Is homeschool the answer for everyone? Absolutely not! Every family is different and the need to rely on the spirit, or an inner strength to guide you as a family couldn’t be more important than now. The trick is finding what is best for your family. If God leads you to it, He will lead you through it. For us this is what He is leading my family through. I had a friend tell me this about homeschooling.
“They say that the first year of homeschooling, you learn a lot about yourself. The second year you learn a lot about your child, and the third year you learn how to teach!”
I have found so far in my first year that this could not be more true. I have learned so much about WHO I am and WHAT I am. There are many things I don’t like and some things that I do like. There has been days that I was grasping for anything to hold onto, trying to find anything at the bottom of the barrel to keep me going. It has been those moments that have made me stronger. During times that are difficult I remember the feelings I had, and then I remember WHY I am doing it. At this time, I put my head back on straight and keep running! We can all do hard things, and they slowly turn into something wonderful.